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[Sep. 7th, 2008|12:31 am] |
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do i really sound like a gigantic jackass when i talk? because i think i do. please, be honest. |
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[Dec. 4th, 2007|07:51 pm] |
it's been so unbelievably long. i guess i just didn't want to make an entry when i was miserable.
i've been out of school forever, and i went back and was the happiest i've been in such a long time. i am so ashamed that i took so many people and things for granted, especially myself. i thought i was looking out for my best interests, but i wasn't. i still have so much growth to do, and i'm on the right track again.
so many people were so nice, i got so many hugs and talked to so many people i missed.
i'm also realizing that holding hate or dislike or grudges against people is such a waste of energy, and such dangerous territory, for both yourself and the other person.
forgiveness is officially in this season. so is love. |
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[May. 29th, 2007|09:03 pm] |
i don't know what it is, but lately i have just been obsessed with livejournal.
umm, i'm actually really happy lately.
my family kind of bothers me, but i still love them anyway.
i miss my dad, like always. but he said the sweetest things to me ever the other day. told me how important i was to him, and how much he loved me and he thinks about me all the time and told me to take care of myself because if i died, he would be so mad at me cause that would mean he'd have to make some phone calls and start killing people and he's too old for that.
i laughed.
maybe you had to be there.
uhhh, i love kevin. he's always gonna be my top priority.
i was reading my old entries and i saw that one about when kerri and i were talking and she said "nicole, you haven't been very positive lately" and i just got all flustered.
i mean, come on. yeah stuff sucks sometimes, but that's why we have people there. or just one person, but if they're the right one, you can get through the stupid bullshit and you'll be happy in the end.
i heard a quote that i liked.
"things always end up okay in the end. if they aren't okay, then it's not the end."
yayyy! |
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[May. 28th, 2007|10:01 pm] |
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i'm so happy you forgave me. thank you for the best hug of my life. i still love you. |
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[May. 27th, 2007|12:35 pm] |
honestly, i don't know what the fuck happened.
i hurt you so much, for so long, and i couldn't even see it.
now that we've switched roles, and you've finally "sewn the last stitch", i know what it's like to be pushed away, when all you are is sorry for doing anything wrong.
you loved me unconditionally, and i subconciously knew that i could walk all over you, and i did it for so long, i can see why you gave up on me.
all the hurtful things you said yesterday were fair, and even though they hurt, you're allowed to hurt me like that forever.
i abused you, and broke you and when you cried to me about how much you love me, i wouldn't even hug you.
after i called you crying, you still came to visit me just to hug me, and i realize that i have never cared for someone as much as you.
you kissed me on the forehead, and told me you'll always have a soft spot for me.
and i'll always have one for you. you're always going to be my best friend and the one who gives the best hugs. i never want to lose you, beause even though we aren't together anymore, which is for the best, i still love you so much.
you're the first priority in my life, even if i don't show it, and if you need me, i'll come running. i'm just a phone call away. |
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[Sep. 11th, 2006|06:11 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | some kick ass song | ] |
ohhh how the past few days have sucked.
oh well, im really excited. cause ashleys here. its been forever. and she makes it really hard to miss her cause i always just wanna punch her in her head. but i still miss her anyway.
so we're gonna go get taco bell. soon. im excited.
im in love with angie. and i hate nicole. shes a crusty whore ♥
things with my family still arent splendid, but who can complain. things'll always be okay! |
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[Sep. 9th, 2006|08:23 pm] |
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im worrying so much.
about everyone.
i dont mean to be a pain in the ass, im so afraid its getting that way.
i just...i want more than anything to be able to make everyone feel better or at least be there for them.
i know im beating this into the ground, but im not kidding:
if anyone of you need me for anything. at all. call me. i'll find a way to help.
i wish i could do more for you guys. ♥ |
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[Sep. 9th, 2006|12:43 am] |
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| | mtv hits | ] |
tonight was a really good night.
my mom was being a major bitch, i couldnt go over kristyns so i just slept till like 7.
kerri called me, i had to beg my mom but she let us go to the game.
saw nicole, angie, nick, tony, shinead, alex, kelsey. lots of people, lots of fun.
then friendlys.
now me and angie are at nicoles house and i think angie is the most amazing person ever.
and i love being a nicole. <3333 things are good. |
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[Sep. 5th, 2006|07:35 pm] |
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can i just say how excited i am for football season? :) <33333 |
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[Sep. 3rd, 2006|09:57 pm] |
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| |  cranky | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the fray | ] |
today was so boring. its 10 pm, and all the lights are off in my house, my moms at her boyfriends and im about to go to bed.
i think tomorrow i wanna go to savers and get like a bunch of stuff. apparently they're having a 50% off sale. sweet.
anyone wanna make plans before school starts? anybody? :) |
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